March and April Reflections

March very quickly blurred into April and by the time I realized I hadn’t done any reflections it was almost time for April reflections soooo I’m combining them.  I’ve been working diligently on a memoir I’m writing so I apologize that my blog has been a bit neglected.  I’m hoping to be done with a rewrite by the end of May, which will hopefully free up new writing time.

Photo Review:

I found this great raven in Sedona during our Christmas vacation there.  It’s done by artist, Henry Dupere.  We have several of his pieces.  Next on my wish list, his hanging bats.

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We remodeled our downstairs floors from carpet to hardwood floors due to Eden’s allergies. It has worked beautifully and she wakes up with a lot less congestion. Well worth it! IMG_1562During school, a friday dinner tradition, no matter what month it is. IMG_1695Snuggly, sleeping on the stairs.IMG_1691 Just depicting the amazing fashion sense of my son….He gets it from his father.IMG_1689 IMG_1652 Easter hunt with cousins
IMG_1663 IMG_1666I don’t know what kind of moth this is, but thought it was a beauty.

IMG_1665When you take selfies on Mom’s iphone, this is what happens….it gets posted.

IMG_1649We had a marvelous hike with lil e’s class on the San Juan loop hike.

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Wild CucumberIMG_1603Sunset reflected in the window IMG_1586 IMG_1576Quotes Worth Remembering:

Your destiny shifts when emotional experiences open you up to yourself. You attract different energy and you put a different energy out. You are not controlled by unseen emotions: you have choices.  — Dr. Claudia Luiz  http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/08/why-you-should-try-psychoanalysis-before-you-die-dr-claudia-luiz/

Give Sorrow words; the grief that does not speak knits up the o’er wrought heart and bids it break.                                                             — William Shakespeare, Macbeth

We can hardly bear to look.  The shadow may carry the best of the life we have not lived.  Go into the basement, the attic, the refuse bin.  Find gold there.  Find an animal who has not been fed or watered.  It is you!!!  The neglected, exiled animal, hungry for attention, is a part of your self.                                                 — Marion Woodman

“…the essence of a therapeutic relationship: finding words where words were absent before and, as a result, being able to share your deepest pain and deepest feelings with another human being.  This is one of the most profound experiences we can have, and such resonance, in which hitherto unspoken words can be discovered, uttered, and received, is fundamental to healing the isolation of trauma — especially if other people in our lives have ignored or silenced us.  Communicating fully is the opposite of being traumatized.”                      — Bessel Van Der Kolk, The Body Keeps The Score

The following three poems are from Ruth Stones, What Love Comes to: New and Selected Poems

What to Do

In someone else’s house

you are not exactly at ease.

It’s a matter of protocol.

That is, sequence.

There are unspoken rules.

Some of these rules are

under the rug –

so to speak.

You employ

a mechanical mouse

to investigate.

Gone

Now fragmented as any bomb,

I make no lasting pattern;

and my ear, not cut off

in the logic of a van Gogh,

an offering of angry love,

is merely blown to bits

in a passing wave of violence.

Therefore I hear such fragments

as make no meaning.

A theater of the ridiculous,

beyond the absurd

and beyond that, scattered –

not like stars, but like the coalescing

weight of gravity; thin and meaningless,

until, tenuous, like the finest web

stretched out, it collapses and carries all

into a single disappearing zero.

Monetary Problems

The widow goes to the bank.

She needs a new roof,

or a new house; whichever.

Janet, the young woman in loans,

gives her the forms to fill out.

The print is small.

The spaces are small.

The widow tries to feel confident.

Social Security isn’t much

but it’s certainly something, she says.

Janet is busy, busy,

but she takes the ninety-seven

for the appraisal.

After a month the bank inspects the place,

Substandard, the bank says,

keeping the ninety-seven.

No fixed income.

Too much of a risk.

Perhaps if the widow had a brother

or a son-in-law to cosign.

That was just a gender suggestion,

of course, the muse says.

Silence helps us drop beneath the superficiality of our mental constructs to that place of the heart that is deeper in its reality than anything the mind can capture or express in words.  It is a place of longing and desire and reaching for that which we do not yet have.  In this wordless place the whole of our person turns itself toward God and waits to be addressed by God.  This kind of prayer is standing in the presence of God with the mind in the heart; that is, at the point of our being where there are no divisions or distinctions and where we are totally one.  There God’s spirit dwells and there the great encounter takes place.  There heart speaks to heart, because there we stand before the face of the Lord, all-seeing within us. (pg. 78)           — Ruth Haley Barton, Invitation to Solitude and Silence

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in very foreign tongue.  Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them.  And the point is to live everything.  Live the questions now.  Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.

–Rainer Marie Rilke  Letters to a Young Poet

Songs on Repeat Mode:

I Don’t Want Your Love by Five for Fighting

Parachute  by Train

Dream by Imagine Dragons

Believe by Mumford and Sons

Chains by Nick Jonas

At the Cross (Love Ran Red) by Chris Tomlin

The Hurt & The Healer by MercyMe

Books on My Nightstand:

What Love Comes to: New and Selected Poems by Ruth Stone

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van der kolk

An Invitation to Silence and Solitude by Ruth Haley Barton

May you have a blessed month full of spring!  What new beginnings will you find?

 

 

 

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